Today, I put up my little Christmas tree. It took me all of 2 minutes to bring it up from the basement, find a surface to place on and plug it into a socket and voila! The Christmas tree was up. It’s a puny little tree but I rather like it. My usual tree (below)…
Category: Letting go
Some days you catch a glimpse of hope
Some days, you wake up, fighting the usual demons of despair and hopelessness; but through sheer effort also conjure a twinge of hope? You push yourself to go for that outdoor walk you’ve been telling yourself you’ll do for weeks, maybe even months. And push yourself to work on a project or two You even…
No sleep tonight
It’s 5:34am, there’s been no sleep. I feel a little better than I did 2 hours, 4 hours ago when I was trying so hard to sleep I’d put sleep meditations on But finally, I just turned told myself to watch TV and relax So that’s what I’m doing. Watching a documentary called Unrest And…
One positive side effect of social media.
I think this is the first day all summer that I’ve not had some kind of travel memory on my FB feed or photo drives. All summer, my feed has had almost daily memories of me planning trips, booking flights, packing stuff, shopping, jetlag! Memories of hectic days getting ready to travel, hectic days at…
9/1. 1:37am
I looked up at the clock and it contained 3 of my favorite digits and numbers which is always a delight. And hoped that this would be enough to salvage the night, the new day, the new month. The first of the month is always a good time to reset and start over and my…
The thinnest veil
I read somewhere- I don’t remember where now- that the loved ones gone before us are separated from us by the thinnest of veils. It might have been thinnest paper. I don’t remember. The other morning though. Just before dawn. I was lying in bed, my mind not fully awake. In that semi lucid, semi…
Resilient humans
How amazing that your, ourheartsCan be brokenSo many timesAnd yet weEndure As though resilienceWas written intoOur very own DNABy our Creator Fearfully and wonderfully madeYou, I, WeAll of us Fearfully and wonderfully made.
The watching of the clock
8 or 9 pm: Going to bed early today didn’t sleep well last night. Have some.wine 10pm: Have showered. Took my meds. Sleep will come shortly 12am: close my eyes, relax. It’ll be okay. 12:30am: Hmm stronger drink maybe? Double meds,? 1am: WTF, 1 am and I’m still up but it’s okay. Read a bit,…
Three years ago today
Three years agoWe laid you to restIt was a hard dayperhaps the toughest day of my life ShockDisbeliefFearHeartbreakWatching the coffinYour coffinBe sunk6 feet under Back then, I couldn’t even sayMom diedI said mom passed away Even today, it blows my mind when I think of the finality of dyingThe finality of your deathTo not see…
Little Did I know
Three years ago, my mother was living her last days but I didn’t know that. I had no clue. And her sudden death was and has been traumatizing.. I certainly thought I did. But little did I know that the last time I saw my mom had been the last. That..that hug at dawn on…
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 