Oh oh,might I be a wasp killer, A pollinator killer??

Lying on my bed yesterday, I saw this huge wasp flying in my room. How it got in initially stumped me but obviously I had to act immediately! So without missing a beat, I leaped out the bed like I was somehow twenty something years old again. And out the bedroom door, I went, frantically…

The Dead Tree

Funny the things you’ll notice all of a sudden sometimes. Things you’d swear were never there. But they were, had been. Perhaps for a long time even. Like this dead tree I chanced upon today Despite coming here 2-3 times a week walking right by it, maybe just a mere 200 or 300 feet away…

The Wee Hours

It’s been a while since I’ve been up in the wee hours of the morning. And by a while, I mean maybe 3 or 4 weeks. That’s a miracle to me. Insomnia has been a constant companion of mine for many many years. Many years. And it’s only after a good night’s sleep or several…

Using humor while grieving

All through summer, fall and winter, my timeline has had memories of me being at home, going home, returning from home again and again. Almost everyday has had a memory related to home. It has been heart warming to see these memories (even though the memories are tinged with varying hues of melancholy). They remind…

O Christmas tree, I Christmas tree.

Today, I put up my little Christmas tree. It took me all of 2 minutes to bring it up from the basement, find a surface to place on and plug it into a socket and voila! The Christmas tree was up. It’s a puny little tree but I rather like it. My usual tree (below)…

Some days you catch a glimpse of hope

Some days, you wake up, fighting the usual demons of despair and hopelessness; but through sheer effort also conjure a twinge of hope? You push yourself to go for that outdoor walk you’ve been telling yourself you’ll do for weeks, maybe even months. And push yourself to work on a project or two You even…

No sleep tonight

It’s 5:34am, there’s been no sleep. I feel a little better than I did 2 hours, 4 hours ago when I was trying so hard to sleep I’d put sleep meditations on But finally, I just turned told myself to watch TV and relax So that’s what I’m doing. Watching a documentary called Unrest And…

One positive side effect of social media.

I think this is the first day all summer that I’ve not had some kind of travel memory on my FB feed or photo drives. All summer, my feed has had almost daily memories of me planning trips, booking flights, packing stuff, shopping, jetlag! Memories of hectic days getting ready to travel, hectic days at…

9/1. 1:37am

I looked up at the clock and it contained 3 of my favorite digits and numbers which is always a delight. And hoped that this would be enough to salvage the night, the new day, the new month. The first of the month is always a good time to reset and start over and my…