For some reason, well to be truthful–many reasons, that have changed with the seasons of my life, I have struggled with sleep for many years. So, on many days, No, I have not woken up smiling. I have woken up grouchy, tired, pessimistic and oh so tired. During the day, I would begin to feel…
Category: Letting go
One day, we won’t be here
This thought occurred to me today. Well it occurs to me a lot lately. I think deep loss does that. Makes us think of the fragility of life and our own mortality. How quickly everything can change. In an instant really. Anyway, the thought came to me during my restroom break. Sitted on the commode,…
Happy Birthday my dearest friend
Happy Birthday Essie. And don’t be doing all that cussing in Heaven!
See their Grief
The other day I wrote of how the wind rattling my window blinds and the rays of dawn reminded me of early morning phone calls from my mom. And how I missed those calls so much and how I so missed her. But really many, many moments on any random day do that. Any grieving…
The non-glowing Glowing Lunar Calendar
So I got this new Calendar. A Glow-in-the-Dark Lunar calendar. I love the new year, I love picking calendars. It took me a while to pick this one. It’s supposed to glow in the dark. “365 glow-in-the-dark moons”. Says so right there on the cover. Well, the sucker ain’t been glowing. Today’s not the sunniest…
A Gentler Grief
There’s something about the sun shining this way through my Kitchen window while I cook that reminds me of mom. Mom loved to cook and she made the best dishes though I may be biased just a little😄 I miss you mom. Two years and seven months later it still surprises me that you are…
A Gentler Grief
There’s something about the sun shining this way through my Kitchen window while I cook that reminds me of mom. Mom loved to cook and she made the best dishes though I may be biased just a little😄 I miss you mom. Two years and seven months later it still surprises me that you are…
Balance..but what type of balance?
I have had this image saved on my phone for almost two years. I’ve looked at it several times and to me, it always meant balance. A balance of mind, body and spirit. And it still means that. But today as I was looking for an image to put on my WhatsApp status, this image…
Old Habits Die Hard
I still reach my phone to call mom especially on my morning commute. Yesterday morning, it had gotten so cold and a thought just jumped to my mind to call and chat with her and tell her how unbelievably cold it had become. Because it’s an international number, I would have to dial an access…
After a loss, even little things change
When a loved one dies, everything changes. Everything. I love saving pins, I save memes, quotes, art, clothing etc etc. The first pin I saved after mom died was how much I miss her phone calls. The day before, I was nonchalantly going on with my life, saving miscellaneous pins oblivious to how drastically life…
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 