Happy Birthday Essie. And don’t be doing all that cussing in Heaven!
Tag: Family
See their Grief
The other day I wrote of how the wind rattling my window blinds and the rays of dawn reminded me of early morning phone calls from my mom. And how I missed those calls so much and how I so missed her. But really many, many moments on any random day do that. Any grieving…
Old Habits Die Hard
I still reach my phone to call mom especially on my morning commute. Yesterday morning, it had gotten so cold and a thought just jumped to my mind to call and chat with her and tell her how unbelievably cold it had become. Because it’s an international number, I would have to dial an access…
First snow and reminiscing
The first snow of the season started this afternoon. Starting kind of slow with tiny little spits. My drive to work earlier in the morning had been okay. Although I must admit I was disappointed when I woke up and found that no snow had fallen in the night, I was ready to have a…
After a loss, even little things change
When a loved one dies, everything changes. Everything. I love saving pins, I save memes, quotes, art, clothing etc etc. The first pin I saved after mom died was how much I miss her phone calls. The day before, I was nonchalantly going on with my life, saving miscellaneous pins oblivious to how drastically life…
Something Precious
Yesterday morning, a lock of my hair fell out while I was putting my hair up in a bun and I started wishing I had taken a lock of mom’s hair or a handprint or something. Something unique and precious that I could make into a pendant or frame it. Mom died suddenly and unexpectedly….
No longer myself
The line dividing before and after is stark, bold and clear. Before, there was a me. And now, I am no longer me. #missyoumom, #grief, #mom
The roller coaster of Grief
That’s the only way I can describe grief today. My mom passed way in May. It’s been about 3 months ago. Most days have been really bad days cycling through the so called stages of grief and dealing with regrets and the what ifs, could haves, should haves that are a big part of the…
Calls to my mom
Many workdays, I’d get off work tired and just fall asleep then wake up around 11pm. Due to the time difference, it would be 7am the following morning in Nairobi. First of all, I’d wake up to find several missed calls from mom so I would return her call. I would ask what she was…
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 