That’s the only way I can describe grief today.

My mom passed way in May. It’s been about 3 months ago. Most days have been really bad days cycling through the so called stages of grief and dealing with regrets and the what ifs, could haves, should haves that are a big part of the grieving process.

Then yesterday, I had such a good day, I felt my mom’s presence, I felt reassured that mom was okay, I felt peace and comfort.

But today, I am back to feeling profound sadness that mom is gone. I cannot believe that I’ll not see her again in this life and it breaks my heart.

What a roller coaster of emotions. I always hated roller coasters.