I looked up at the clock and it contained 3 of my favorite digits and numbers which is always a delight. And hoped that this would be enough to salvage the night, the new day, the new month. The first of the month is always a good time to reset and start over and my…
Category: gratitude
The thinnest veil
I read somewhere- I don’t remember where now- that the loved ones gone before us are separated from us by the thinnest of veils. It might have been thinnest paper. I don’t remember. The other morning though. Just before dawn. I was lying in bed, my mind not fully awake. In that semi lucid, semi…
Resilient humans
How amazing that your, ourheartsCan be brokenSo many timesAnd yet weEndure As though resilienceWas written intoOur very own DNABy our Creator Fearfully and wonderfully madeYou, I, WeAll of us Fearfully and wonderfully made.
The watching of the clock
8 or 9 pm: Going to bed early today didn’t sleep well last night. Have some.wine 10pm: Have showered. Took my meds. Sleep will come shortly 12am: close my eyes, relax. It’ll be okay. 12:30am: Hmm stronger drink maybe? Double meds,? 1am: WTF, 1 am and I’m still up but it’s okay. Read a bit,…
Little Did I know
Three years ago, my mother was living her last days but I didn’t know that. I had no clue. And her sudden death was and has been traumatizing.. I certainly thought I did. But little did I know that the last time I saw my mom had been the last. That..that hug at dawn on…
I wake up smiling when I sleep well
For some reason, well to be truthful–many reasons, that have changed with the seasons of my life, I have struggled with sleep for many years. So, on many days, No, I have not woken up smiling. I have woken up grouchy, tired, pessimistic and oh so tired. During the day, I would begin to feel…
One day, we won’t be here
This thought occurred to me today. Well it occurs to me a lot lately. I think deep loss does that. Makes us think of the fragility of life and our own mortality. How quickly everything can change. In an instant really. Anyway, the thought came to me during my restroom break. Sitted on the commode,…
Happy Birthday my dearest friend
Happy Birthday Essie. And don’t be doing all that cussing in Heaven!
The non-glowing Glowing Lunar Calendar
So I got this new Calendar. A Glow-in-the-Dark Lunar calendar. I love the new year, I love picking calendars. It took me a while to pick this one. It’s supposed to glow in the dark. “365 glow-in-the-dark moons”. Says so right there on the cover. Well, the sucker ain’t been glowing. Today’s not the sunniest…
A Gentler Grief
There’s something about the sun shining this way through my Kitchen window while I cook that reminds me of mom. Mom loved to cook and she made the best dishes though I may be biased just a little😄 I miss you mom. Two years and seven months later it still surprises me that you are…
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 