Today the 21st of May was my mom’s last full earthly day. She died in the very early hours of May 22, 2018 of heart failure. Her death was sudden and unexpected. It has been one of the most traumatic experiences of my life. Tomorrow, we’ll have a small memorial for mom. In these time…
Category: Faith
Balance..but what type of balance?
I have had this image saved on my phone for almost two years. I’ve looked at it several times and to me, it always meant balance. A balance of mind, body and spirit. And it still means that. But today as I was looking for an image to put on my WhatsApp status, this image…
Day 24 in Kenya
As of today, there are 184 confirmed cases and 7 deaths so far. Testing is still limited and is expected to become more widespread in the next few weeks as the country acquires more equipment. Once testing ramps up, there will be a more accurate count of confirmed cases. Measures put into place so far…
First snow and reminiscing
The first snow of the season started this afternoon. Starting kind of slow with tiny little spits. My drive to work earlier in the morning had been okay. Although I must admit I was disappointed when I woke up and found that no snow had fallen in the night, I was ready to have a…
A missed friend.
Essie, yesterday I walked at that park on Paseo near the old Research Hospital. You would remember it. As I walked, I noticed the structures on it. The old stairs leading to what may have been a swimming pool. The stone archway that leads to a little bridge crossing the tiniest little stream, you know?…
Building Gratitude.01
For some reason, sleep eluded me last night and I only started feeling sleepy just before my alarm went off..sigh. Then there was an accident on the highway which led me being 30 minutes late to work..ugh. But driving up on this little street that turns into the Parking Lot. I looked up and there…
Something Precious
Yesterday morning, a lock of my hair fell out while I was putting my hair up in a bun and I started wishing I had taken a lock of mom’s hair or a handprint or something. Something unique and precious that I could make into a pendant or frame it. Mom died suddenly and unexpectedly….
Surprised by an Expected Grief Ambush
Two things were happening this weekend. I say two things as if life happens in a vacuum but it does not. But two things were happening, First of all, the 22nd was going to be nine months since mom passed away unexpectedly and the 23rd was going mark 25 years since we lost our brother…
In the shadow of grief
In essence, this is true. But deep loss does tinge, mask, shade, shadow and.. indeed steal the promise of new dawns, of tomorrows, of anything where our loved ones no longer exist..on this pysical plane. #stillhere #releasinggrief #dailycalm #dailymeditation #onestepatatime
Dear mom, life is weird now.
Dear mom, it’s funny how your death has touched just about every aspect of my life. Nothing seems the same anymore, nothing seems normal. Things I thought were important, excuses I made, decisions I made, people I thought were friends, stupid memes I thought were so damn profound, silly useless advice I gave and received….
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 