Category: Family
After a loss, even little things change
When a loved one dies, everything changes. Everything. I love saving pins, I save memes, quotes, art, clothing etc etc. The first pin I saved after mom died was how much I miss her phone calls. The day before, I was nonchalantly going on with my life, saving miscellaneous pins oblivious to how drastically life…
Something Precious
Yesterday morning, a lock of my hair fell out while I was putting my hair up in a bun and I started wishing I had taken a lock of mom’s hair or a handprint or something. Something unique and precious that I could make into a pendant or frame it. Mom died suddenly and unexpectedly….
Surprised by an Expected Grief Ambush
Two things were happening this weekend. I say two things as if life happens in a vacuum but it does not. But two things were happening, First of all, the 22nd was going to be nine months since mom passed away unexpectedly and the 23rd was going mark 25 years since we lost our brother…
In the shadow of grief
In essence, this is true. But deep loss does tinge, mask, shade, shadow and.. indeed steal the promise of new dawns, of tomorrows, of anything where our loved ones no longer exist..on this pysical plane. #stillhere #releasinggrief #dailycalm #dailymeditation #onestepatatime
Dear mom, life is weird now.
Dear mom, it’s funny how your death has touched just about every aspect of my life. Nothing seems the same anymore, nothing seems normal. Things I thought were important, excuses I made, decisions I made, people I thought were friends, stupid memes I thought were so damn profound, silly useless advice I gave and received….
Mom, what’s heaven like?
In that fog of morning sleep, I woke up thinking. Let me call mom, see what she’s up to today…Then I said to myself, mom’s not here, she’s in heaven. It’s been 8.5 months. 9 months next week. I miss you mom. Wish I could you call and ask you what’s heaven’s like and what…
Seven months ago
So it’s been 7 months since we lost mom. It’s been particularly hard being here at home and not seeing mom, hearing her voice and laughter, sitting and chatting. Mom had the most hilarious stories that she’d tell over and over and just crack the hell up😅. I feel her absence acutely and miss her…
Give thanks
Okay full disclaimer. For Thanksgiving, this post may be a bit of a downer but read it anyway. I am not sure where I came across this quote but I know I posted it a lot before mom died six months ago today. In looking back, the universe was trying to tell me something but…
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 