How amazing that your, ourheartsCan be brokenSo many timesAnd yet weEndure As though resilienceWas written intoOur very own DNABy our Creator Fearfully and wonderfully madeYou, I, WeAll of us Fearfully and wonderfully made.
Author: authensible1357
Writer, gardener, reader, scholar and fellow traveler in this journey called life sharing my thoughts and experiences.
The watching of the clock
8 or 9 pm: Going to bed early today didn’t sleep well last night. Have some.wine 10pm: Have showered. Took my meds. Sleep will come shortly 12am: close my eyes, relax. It’ll be okay. 12:30am: Hmm stronger drink maybe? Double meds,? 1am: WTF, 1 am and I’m still up but it’s okay. Read a bit,…
Three years ago today
Three years agoWe laid you to restIt was a hard dayperhaps the toughest day of my life ShockDisbeliefFearHeartbreakWatching the coffinYour coffinBe sunk6 feet under Back then, I couldn’t even sayMom diedI said mom passed away Even today, it blows my mind when I think of the finality of dyingThe finality of your deathTo not see…
Little Did I know
Three years ago, my mother was living her last days but I didn’t know that. I had no clue. And her sudden death was and has been traumatizing.. I certainly thought I did. But little did I know that the last time I saw my mom had been the last. That..that hug at dawn on…
That Amazing Goddamn Sycamore Tree
On the Southeast corner of my humble abode stands this enormous, really beautiful tree. Seen below on a cloudy recent morning. It is at it’s most striking right now I think. With it’s usual spotted brown bark stripped in the fall and now standing there stark bare waiting for spring to begin. You can spot…
Sometimes Series: A Random Photo
Sometimes,I find photos on my phone that I don’t understand at first glance. Before, I spotted myself in the blind spot mirror taking the photo, I was like “Now, wtf is this photo?”😅 What on earth was I documenting? And why? Like most everything else, I was looking at this photo through the lens of…
I wake up smiling when I sleep well
For some reason, well to be truthful–many reasons, that have changed with the seasons of my life, I have struggled with sleep for many years. So, on many days, No, I have not woken up smiling. I have woken up grouchy, tired, pessimistic and oh so tired. During the day, I would begin to feel…
One day, we won’t be here
This thought occurred to me today. Well it occurs to me a lot lately. I think deep loss does that. Makes us think of the fragility of life and our own mortality. How quickly everything can change. In an instant really. Anyway, the thought came to me during my restroom break. Sitted on the commode,…
Happy Birthday my dearest friend
Happy Birthday Essie. And don’t be doing all that cussing in Heaven!
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 