Two things were happening this weekend. I say two things as if life happens in a vacuum but it does not. But two things were happening, First of all, the 22nd was going to be nine months since mom passed away unexpectedly and the 23rd was going mark 25 years since we lost our brother…
Category: Letting go
Seven months ago
So it’s been 7 months since we lost mom. It’s been particularly hard being here at home and not seeing mom, hearing her voice and laughter, sitting and chatting. Mom had the most hilarious stories that she’d tell over and over and just crack the hell up😅. I feel her absence acutely and miss her…
Ignorance is bliss
How many times have I said to a grieving family “thoughts and prayers..”, “RIP”, “My sincere condolences” And I meant it. I empathized. But I realize now that I truly knew nothing of grief. There’s no grief like when death touches your family. Death has passed our way before..twenty years ago when our brother died….
Missing mom
How can the world go on without mom?
Then I meditate
Sometimes life becomes too distracting and disruptive that I neglect to carve out the 10-13 minutes I need for my #DailyCalm guided meditations. And I forget how much I enjoy them, how serene yet alive I feel after these brief sessions, and how bit by bit, that calm feeling is staying with me longer and…
Learning to relax the body
As I continue in my quest to improve my sleep, I’ve been paying more attention to how I feel, to how my body feels. I started noticing just how tense I am, how tense I spend my days and how very tense I am at bed time. It’s no wonder I have such diffficulty sleeping…
Essie
Today I watched the full moon. The “full worm moon” they call it. I watched from the stoop Where you used to sit to watch some supermoon or other. I sat still, closed my eyes and listened for you Wishing you’d materialize and be here Once again. Right next door.
Essie and fall
My mind has been a lot on my late neighbor..maybe it’s the weather. My first memories of Essie when we moved to this neighborhood twelve years ago are of her in the fall spending hours raking her yard. In those days before she lost her sight and diabetes took a toll on her health, Essie…
New Priorities
The solstice was just a couple of days ago. I took the time to check in with where I am with my goals and resolutions for the year. I’ve made some progress but I also realized that more than anything else, I really need to work on self care. My sleep sucks. I am consistently…
Sleep matters
We insomniacs often deceive ourselves that if we get 3-4 or slightly less hours of sleep, that we are okay. But this is a lie. We will finction yes, for the most part, that we are okay. Or with maybe just 2-3 that we will be okay, I know I do this a lot. This…
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 