Author: authensible1357
Writer, gardener, reader, scholar and fellow traveler in this journey called life sharing my thoughts and experiences.
It’s real..after all.
Everything in mom’s house is a trigger now. I sit and look at the sofa my mom used to sit on, nap on. It sits empty now. Only her cat likes to lay there, the rest of us seem to avoid it as though still saving this seat for mom. How can this be that…
After a loss, even little things change
When a loved one dies, everything changes. Everything. I love saving pins, I save memes, quotes, art, clothing etc etc. The first pin I saved after mom died was how much I miss her phone calls. The day before, I was nonchalantly going on with my life, saving miscellaneous pins oblivious to how drastically life…
Building Gratitude.01
For some reason, sleep eluded me last night and I only started feeling sleepy just before my alarm went off..sigh. Then there was an accident on the highway which led me being 30 minutes late to work..ugh. But driving up on this little street that turns into the Parking Lot. I looked up and there…
Something Precious
Yesterday morning, a lock of my hair fell out while I was putting my hair up in a bun and I started wishing I had taken a lock of mom’s hair or a handprint or something. Something unique and precious that I could make into a pendant or frame it. Mom died suddenly and unexpectedly….
In grief and hope, maybe
Missing mom a lot today. Came across this poem titled How we Survive by Mark Rickerby while looking for something to mirror the devastation I am feeling today, have been feeling of late. And I did, there is no scarcity of that. The paragraph below hit me as I wanted it to and I cried…
Surprised by an Expected Grief Ambush
Two things were happening this weekend. I say two things as if life happens in a vacuum but it does not. But two things were happening, First of all, the 22nd was going to be nine months since mom passed away unexpectedly and the 23rd was going mark 25 years since we lost our brother…
The Green Book Movie: Thoughts
I have been wanting to see the movie Green Book for a while and when I realized it had been nominated for 5 Oscars, I definitely wanted to see it before the Oscars aired. And it was just by sheer coincidence that I did not read the reviews. I usually will skim a few reviews…
In the shadow of grief
In essence, this is true. But deep loss does tinge, mask, shade, shadow and.. indeed steal the promise of new dawns, of tomorrows, of anything where our loved ones no longer exist..on this pysical plane. #stillhere #releasinggrief #dailycalm #dailymeditation #onestepatatime
Dear mom, life is weird now.
Dear mom, it’s funny how your death has touched just about every aspect of my life. Nothing seems the same anymore, nothing seems normal. Things I thought were important, excuses I made, decisions I made, people I thought were friends, stupid memes I thought were so damn profound, silly useless advice I gave and received….
Authensible Musings: Piercing the mundane of everyday life 