The Wee Hours

It’s been a while since I’ve been up in the wee hours of the morning. And by a while, I mean maybe 3 or 4 weeks. That’s a miracle to me. Insomnia has been a constant companion of mine for many many years. Many years. And it’s only after a good night’s sleep or several…

9/1. 1:37am

I looked up at the clock and it contained 3 of my favorite digits and numbers which is always a delight. And hoped that this would be enough to salvage the night, the new day, the new month. The first of the month is always a good time to reset and start over and my…

Not Again!!!

My sleep routine failed me last night. I was up till 3:40am or maybe 4 not sure. Where did I go wrong? Hmm, I think I went to bed too early. Plus I should have gotten out of bed and did something like laundry or dishes or whatever then tried to go back to sleep….

I wake up smiling when I sleep well

For some reason, well to be truthful–many reasons, that have changed with the seasons of my life, I have struggled with sleep for many years. So, on many days, No, I have not woken up smiling. I have woken up grouchy, tired, pessimistic and oh so tired. During the day, I would begin to feel…

3am

As an insomniac, I often don’t sleep well. When mom was alive and I was visiting home, I’d often go check on her in the night. I woke up at 2am today, I went downstairs, turned off the lights left on by my teenage nephew; got a glass of water and wished my mom was…

Week 14: Insomnia rears its ugly head

I haven’t written much this week. Truth be told, I haven’t done much of anything. Insomnia reared its ugly head again and thwarted all the plans I had carefully laid. I spent most nights struggling to sleep and in the morning, here came sleep which is so frustrating during the workweek. Today being an off…

Dear sleep, I can explain

Dear sleep: Look, I can explain. For two straight nights, you’ve run away from me despite my pleas. Ok, I was too desperate. I get it. I begged too much, tossed too much, turned too much, snacked too much, sipped too much, browsed too much, Netflixed too much. Oh wow!, you are right. It was…

One word: Ugh!

Is that a word? Probably not. It’s more an expression I guess. Whatever it is, ugh! No, actually a big fat UGH! I hate when sleep is as elusive as it is tonight. I hate that I get anxious when that happens. I hate that the anxiety feeds on itself creating even more anxiety. I…