The thinnest veil

I read somewhere- I don’t remember where now- that the loved ones gone before us are separated from us by the thinnest of veils. It might have been thinnest paper. I don’t remember. The other morning though. Just before dawn. I was lying in bed, my mind not fully awake. In that semi lucid, semi…

Not Again!!!

My sleep routine failed me last night. I was up till 3:40am or maybe 4 not sure. Where did I go wrong? Hmm, I think I went to bed too early. Plus I should have gotten out of bed and did something like laundry or dishes or whatever then tried to go back to sleep….

After a loss, even little things change

When a loved one dies, everything changes. Everything. I love saving pins, I save memes, quotes, art, clothing etc etc. The first pin I saved after mom died was how much I miss her phone calls. The day before, I was nonchalantly going on with my life, saving miscellaneous pins oblivious to how drastically life…

Bye mom

In the early morning of May 22, my mom passed away. We had talked around 7pm the night before. She said she had a bad cold and had some chest pain. She said she would go to the doctor in the morning. But she did not make it to the next morning. She had severe…

Sleep matters

We insomniacs often deceive ourselves that if we get 3-4 or slightly less hours of sleep, that we are okay. But this is a lie. We will finction yes, for the most part, that we are okay.  Or with maybe just 2-3 that we will be okay, I know I do this a lot. This…

Enough! 

Enough of this not sleeping nonsensical BS! Enough of laying awake all or most of the night! Enough of tossing and turning all night! Enough of being fatigued! Enough of feeling like I am  insomnia’s damned hostage!  Enough enough enough! It’s time to start sleeping better. To get to the underlying cause of this insomnia…