Oh oh,might I be a wasp killer, A pollinator killer??

Lying on my bed yesterday, I saw this huge wasp flying in my room. How it got in initially stumped me but obviously I had to act immediately! So without missing a beat, I leaped out the bed like I was somehow twenty something years old again. And out the bedroom door, I went, frantically…

The Dead Tree

Funny the things you’ll notice all of a sudden sometimes. Things you’d swear were never there. But they were, had been. Perhaps for a long time even. Like this dead tree I chanced upon today Despite coming here 2-3 times a week walking right by it, maybe just a mere 200 or 300 feet away…

The Wee Hours

It’s been a while since I’ve been up in the wee hours of the morning. And by a while, I mean maybe 3 or 4 weeks. That’s a miracle to me. Insomnia has been a constant companion of mine for many many years. Many years. And it’s only after a good night’s sleep or several…

Using humor while grieving

All through summer, fall and winter, my timeline has had memories of me being at home, going home, returning from home again and again. Almost everyday has had a memory related to home. It has been heart warming to see these memories (even though the memories are tinged with varying hues of melancholy). They remind…

Wishes

It’s late afternoon. I’m lying in bed. I feel a bit tired and should be resting. Instead I’m thinking about the cat outside, the mail at the door, the clothes in the washer, the kitchen floor that could use a sweep, the desk that needs sorting out, the clothes that I pulled out the dryer…

O Christmas tree, I Christmas tree.

Today, I put up my little Christmas tree. It took me all of 2 minutes to bring it up from the basement, find a surface to place on and plug it into a socket and voila! The Christmas tree was up. It’s a puny little tree but I rather like it. My usual tree (below)…

Recalibrating..

Sometimes, it feels like the entire earth has to and is indeed constantly recalibrating to accommodate for us, Earth’s main tenant? squatter? Passerby,? As though the earth was somehow working to master how to deal with our unpredictable and constantly escalating and damaging actions, attitudes, reactions. If I sit quietly, I can almost imagine the…

Glass half full or half empty?

I’ve been having a weird oil burning kind of smell in my car for a few days. The smell is very strong in the morning and at the end of day. The smell was a little overpowering, so during my commute last evening, I opened my windows to ease the smell. Unfortunately, I forgot the…