The Dead Tree

Funny the things you’ll notice all of a sudden sometimes. Things you’d swear were never there. But they were, had been. Perhaps for a long time even. Like this dead tree I chanced upon today Despite coming here 2-3 times a week walking right by it, maybe just a mere 200 or 300 feet away…

The Wee Hours

It’s been a while since I’ve been up in the wee hours of the morning. And by a while, I mean maybe 3 or 4 weeks. That’s a miracle to me. Insomnia has been a constant companion of mine for many many years. Many years. And it’s only after a good night’s sleep or several…

Using humor while grieving

All through summer, fall and winter, my timeline has had memories of me being at home, going home, returning from home again and again. Almost everyday has had a memory related to home. It has been heart warming to see these memories (even though the memories are tinged with varying hues of melancholy). They remind…

Wishes

It’s late afternoon. I’m lying in bed. I feel a bit tired and should be resting. Instead I’m thinking about the cat outside, the mail at the door, the clothes in the washer, the kitchen floor that could use a sweep, the desk that needs sorting out, the clothes that I pulled out the dryer…

Recalibrating..

Sometimes, it feels like the entire earth has to and is indeed constantly recalibrating to accommodate for us, Earth’s main tenant? squatter? Passerby,? As though the earth was somehow working to master how to deal with our unpredictable and constantly escalating and damaging actions, attitudes, reactions. If I sit quietly, I can almost imagine the…

Happy Heavenly Birthday Mom

We never knew my mom’s actual birthday date so I long ago picked a date. The coolest date I could think of. 10/10 Brief history lesson: the scramble for Africa did not care that Africans had their own belief and governing systems, traditions, customs, artefacts, celebrations. Nope, none of that mattered/ matters, not when the…

Some days you catch a glimpse of hope

Some days, you wake up, fighting the usual demons of despair and hopelessness; but through sheer effort also conjure a twinge of hope? You push yourself to go for that outdoor walk you’ve been telling yourself you’ll do for weeks, maybe even months. And push yourself to work on a project or two You even…

Sunday Thoughts

I love Sundays When we were kids, Sundays were for attending mass and then coming home to special meals cooked by mom. In boarding school, Sundays were for visits from mom with chapatis, chips, cake!! Every single Sunday! She never missed a single Sunday In University, Sundays were for calling mom. I never missed a…